am i smart?

 is school worth it. 


lol


i don't think so.


i mean i guess it is.


but like,


does any of it really matter?


am i really any smarter than i was 15 minutes ago before I learned about the manchester water scheme?


probably not.


obviously not.


these teachers fill us up with so much information


and if i can't remember it all when it comes time for my quiz on thursday


then i fail and that means i'm stupid and that i'm not a good student.


because if I can't recall the exact date that Manchester began its production of a new reservoir then why am i even in school?

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